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I've recently started a "30 before 30" list. Getting a tattoo is on that list.

I was browsing Pinterest and I found the perfect tattoo that would have a lot of meaning to me.

Now, I'm not one who has jumped on the anchor bandwagon, but I really do love this tattoo. I would/will probably get it with teal in it since that is the color for PCOS awareness.

I was talking with my Pop Pop about my journey in TTC, and he asked me if I would consider adopting. Lately, I've been thinking about other options if I can't get pregnant. But I think that has led me to more of a "giving up" mentality. I really don't want to give up.

I was talking with a friend at work who knows my situation. I told her that I was going to a fertility specialist. She mentioned who she goes to and apparently it's a small world here because she goes to the same practice that I'll be going to. It was a relief to hear that they are a great practice to go to.

I'm starting to get nervous as I'm about a month away from going to the fertility specialist. I'm praying for a sense of peace and encouragement as we move forward in our journey.

30 before 30

 I'm turning 29 on Friday...

WAAAH!! 

So I thought it would join the trend of making a 30 before 30 list. 

It'll be a work in progress...

1. Get a tattoo 
2. Get pregnant- been working on this one
3. Scrapbook my trip to Italy
4. Clean out our junk room
5. Go to an Eagles game
6. Go to a Wine & Design class
7. Buy a bike & get back into shape
8. Go camping with Christy
9. Visit my college roomies that live far away
10. Have an "oh crap" fund in savings
11. Reconcile my relationship with my dad
12. Read one book a month or 12 all together
13. Make 5 of the crafty things I've pinned on Pinterest
14. Celebrate my 30th birthday at the Borgata in Atlantic City!
15. Update my scrapbook for the hubs & I

I'm half way there...Stay tuned!

TTC Update

I found out this past weekend that my OB left the practice and didn't leave any information. 

Ugh. 

I just finished another round of meds, which didn't work, and I need a break. I was going to call my OB for a recommendation to a fertility specialist, but I guess that's not going to happen!

So, I decided to make an appointment with my Endo doctor. She told me before that she would recommend me to a fertility specialist. I went today, and she seemed pretty confident that now is the right time. 

So, off I go to the fertility specialist at the end of June. I just hope there are some things we can do that won't be extremely expensive. I will be heart broken if it comes to having to pay a great amount of money we can't afford. 

It's time to pray for guidance, a sense of calmness, and understanding.